Broken

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

– Jeremiah 29:11

Remember my previous blog, “A Journey of Love…”? Well, I’m back in the same position I was before I wrote it – heartbroken. However, this one is a bit different, a little harder to deal with because in reality, I broke my own heart.

I decided to take matters into my own hands because I wanted to be loved and in a relationship so bad. In doing so, I walked in disobedience to the Lord for a while. I was slipping away from the presence of the Lord, ignoring His voice, shutting Him out all because I wanted to experience love and companionship. Little did I know, what I was desiring, could only be found in the Lord.

I’m deciding to be vulnerable because there is victory in my vulnerability. On the outside I appear as if I have it all together, but internally it’s a different story. I’m broken. I’m dealing with anger, resentment, insecurities, rejection, abandonment. I want to take you all along with me on my healing journey.

But, this is all a part of the plans God has for my life. God had to break me all the way down just to build me back up. I’m receiving the healing I need as I share my pain with others. There might be someone, male or female, dealing with this exact same thing. I’m here to tell you that you are not alone. This is where God wanted me to because it is drawing me closer to Him.

“The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

– Psalm 34:18

I’m going on another journey to discover who I am in Christ, to fully trust Him in all areas of my life, to be healed from this pain, to discover the love of Jesus Christ, and forgive myself.

Will you go on this journey with me?

– Lyh